I prepared every shoot intensively. From the styling, possible poses, light setups to the timing. Actually, I don't like to leave anything to chance. When shooting, I do a lot of it spontaneously, but good preparation gives me security and the freedom to spontaneously re-act to new situations.
And yet I feel tense inside before every shoot. I feel like a racehorse locked in a box waiting for it to finally start. When a make-up artist then feels like making up the model for hours, I scratch my hooves.
Joking aside. I think stage fright is a good sign. It shows that after so many years I take every shoot really seriously and always want to achieve a good result. I don't just snap around, I always do my best.
During the shoot, I'm in the tunnel. Especially with larger productions, I forget everything around me. I don't check my cell phone and sometimes I even forget to have some water on a regular basis. I love being fully focused and working without distractions. The best results are achieved when the model drops completely and is 100% on the shoot, like me.
When the shoot is over, I'm euphoric at first. I know the good results, I'm soaked in sweat and know that I gave my all. It was an exhausting day. Sore muscles are guaranteed the next morning. And I'm really exhausted. But there is euphoria in my head. I am happy and look forward to the great pictures.
If I then have the hundreds of photos transferred to the computer and look at them in detail, I always find something that could have been better. I don't mean to say that I am disappointed. But there is definitely a certain disillusion. Maybe also because I photograph each motif around 30 times and thus constantly see images that are very similar. That feels tiring.
When the final selection is made and the images have been processed and retouched, there is a real boost again. Like a rocket. Then I am absolutely happy. The pictures turned out much better than expected. And I am in an absolutely positive mood. Sometimes I even ask myself how I managed all of this and say to myself that I am a good photographer.
It's weird that my emotions are always on a roller coaster. I don't know exactly why that is either. I'm sure I've exaggerated a little in my description. But basically, that's what every shoot feels like to me.
Thanks a lot to Clementine for helping me illustrating this article. What a wonderful model!
Simon Bolz, Frankfurt
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